dang...i love him!!!

I whip my hair back and forth....(Luca)

then the night comes.....

Last night, I received a familiar visit form "Debbie Downer" or maybe I should call him "Danny Death" because he steals and kills my joy. Reality that is.... It still hurts to think about everything I have lost and how fucking hard it's going to be to top the amazing life I once had. (skip down to below to avoid a boring vent moment...)

What pisses me off even more, is that the one who let me down, still has no clue and thinks everything is somewhat cool and that it's okay to contact me and act like things are normal and we're friends again. Yeah right!!! I made it clear to him the other night that, I'm busy repairing my life. (This is after he sent me messages wandering if I was mad at him because I haven't responded to his "being nosey" texts for a few weeks. 

I tried to make it though today without any major upsets, but (when the night comes....I fail....

Any-who...below I posted a few pictures from today's visit to Lowes and a picture of a really sexy haircut I'm thinking about having done. Goodnight Love -cc

if only this was true....

Beautiful Day Fishing @ the Cabin

Toronto Countdown Begins

And so it begins, my official health challenge to attend my first fitness event that will be held in Toronto, Canada early next year.

My morning began with a healthy bowl of Quaker oatmeal with craisins, light honey, Jiffy extra crunchy peanut butter and fat free milk......

After breakfast, I dedicated my daily workout on "strengthening and conditioning my back through a series of sets and reps with different weight intensities. I also threw in a few calf raises and hamstring action. Tomorrow, I will be working on calves (depending on how sore they are) and I will be focusing on shoulders and a warm up on the stair machine for my quick cardio. 

I hope everyone had a great weekend and have a great week ahead!! Thanks for sharing my life Love. -cc

tired and annoyed

I Attended a great birthday party today.....It was nice to be around the simplicity and carefree energy of children. No worries, not a care in the world, but to be happy and to continuously seek it naturally. 

Beyond the celebrations, each day, I am growing more restless with being here. I still feel so trapped and anxious to be set free from this routine and atmosphere. I miss the bay; I miss my home, but I guess it's a good thing that I no longer miss "death". 

color run oct. 2013