tired and annoyed

I Attended a great birthday party today.....It was nice to be around the simplicity and carefree energy of children. No worries, not a care in the world, but to be happy and to continuously seek it naturally. 

Beyond the celebrations, each day, I am growing more restless with being here. I still feel so trapped and anxious to be set free from this routine and atmosphere. I miss the bay; I miss my home, but I guess it's a good thing that I no longer miss "death".